Broken Heart

I am getting ready to jump start my blog again. I need to do this. It will help me heal. Stand by friends... I'm trying. I miss my followers that read my blog from all over the world. I'm definately coming back! Stay tuned!

Painful year

OK,
2009 was the worst year of my life but... 2010 has been a horrific year. I am not dealing with this "single mother" thing very good. I have lost all of my friends. I am still trying to learn how to be like their dad. They need a father figure. The 50+ friends of Den and I promised they would be there for us. I guess they forgot. All of Dens best friends for over 30 years and his family are non-existant. I am grateful for the only family member who keeps in touch with us. Besides my parents, i am grateful that i have my bonus daughter

Hello

hello to all of my blog followers. OK-basically just me. I don't have any followers but this is good for me. I re-arranged my bedroom furniture today and came across a bag with a few things in it. It was the clothes Denny wore to the hospital. The last clothes he wore at our house. The clothes he wore when I called 911. We didn't know that he wasn't coming home. We didn't know that was the last time he got to wear real clothes. It was so painful. I had a major breakdown. His clothes still smell like him. I sealed the bag back up so I can smell him whenever I want to. Well, I realize I am no where close to opening up our closet and seeing all of his clothes and smelling him. One step at a time. Life is so hard. One step at a time.