Hello Tuesday!

I had a very, "Tired, Trying, "BUT TERRIFFIC TUESDAY!" I read some blogs that are so uplifting, I read some blogs that make me wish I was sailing around the world, I read some blogs that break my heart, I read some blogs that inspire me to be the best person I can be, I read some blogs that scare me -because some grown-ups can be very mean. I don't understand... 

Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday to me.

I woke up this morning feeling sorry for myself. I honestly hoped nobody would remember it was my birthday. I didn't want to answer my phone, I didn't want to be bothered. I wanted to stay in bed and watch Lifetime movies. And eat cheese doodles and drink diet coke. I wasn't really depressed. I just didn't want to act all cheerful and happy. I just wanted to chill for a few hours.

Well, for starters, the Lifetime movie was: "The abduction of Elizabeth Smart", not the kind of movie I was hoping to watch. My other choices were, Jersey Shore, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME"! I have heard about that show but... enough said.  Gold Rush? OMG!!! Lizard Lick Towing? They DO NOT represent our entire state of North Carolina!!! Mob Wives? Geez!!! The Waltons? YES!!! 

My children barged into my room with Birthday cards and prescious gifts! I changed my mind! I was so happy they remembered my birthday and "bothered" me! I had the best birthday ever! I answered my phone and was so happy my parents and family called me to wish me a Happy Birthday. My children took me out to dinner and I had a fabulous time! 

I had a Wonderful Birthday! 

Bye Bye Bags

My eye bags are so much better! Preparation H rocks!

Wednesday

Wednesday. Wow. Weird. Work  Woke up with my eyes almost swollen shut. Allergies? Of course I applied heavy make-up to... Conseal-disguise my swollen eye lids and the massive bags under my eyes IM TALKING HUGE bags under my eyes. I painted my face with lots of makeup. I even wore a red shirt to match my eyelids.  I went to work - I did my best to avoid all contact with my co-workers. When I passed my co-workers in my office I bent my head back - I thought that made my swelling less noticeable. I should have worn shoes without heels today. I was walking down the hall in my office with my head bent back at an awkward angle to disguise my disfigured face and tripped over my own feet. I don't know if I broke my left foot in the same place for the 3rd time or if it is a bad sprain. A sweet young co-worker helped me up. I told her my story. I showed her my eyes. She made me feel a lot better about myself. She said: "if people don't know you - they would just think that - that's what your face normally  looks like " 

Terrific Tuesday

It's time to think positive! Today is Tuesday. Tuesdays are TERRIFIC!  It took me 1 1/2 hours to drive home from work today! I had a positive attitude! I opened the windows in my car, turned the radio up very loud and sang songs that I don't know the words to. It made me feel better. It did not make the people in the cars near me feel better. But... it felt good!
By the way, I replaced "traffic" with "terrific". 

I'm looking forward to tomorrow!  WONDERFUL, WILD, WEDNESDAY! I have a few wacky things to share. Watch out!

So tired.

I'm sooo tired. but I can't sleep. Tossed and turned all night last night. I was so tired driving the 35 miles to work today. I was sooo tired all day at work. I was sooo tired driving the 35 miles home from work. I am totally exhausted tonight - but I still can't sleep. 

But... I have my rescue dog, Minnie. She rescued me! I think I will sleep good tonight. I don't have to   worry about waking up early to go to work. One other issue:  My itty bitty Minnie snores. But her snoring is very cute.

TGIF!!!

TGIF Everyone!!!

T:  Thinking about

G: Gorging on

I:   Italian

F:  Food

Happy Friday!

Well - Here Goes

I took off work today to take care of important business. I had to find Car Titles, etc... things that I didn't care about and didn't want to think about - so I put several very important documents - somewhere.

I have always been extremely organized - I loved organizing cabinets, closets, drawers, EVERYTHING! I loved cleaning- dusting-vacuuming-mopping the floors. I miss my organized - clean house. I miss the old me.  But- I also think to myself - why bother with organizing, etc... I have to get a grip on my life and accept what is happening, and carry the boxes in that are in my car and start packing. I am still doing my best to be in denial. But, I know I need to wake up and be strong and be the parent my children deserve.  God Help Me

Thursday. But... not Friday

Well, I had a better day today. I had rough night last night. I still don't know how to be a single parent and wish I had Den here to tell me how to handle issues. He always knew how to handle everything.

I still have days that I am so sad and lonely and miss him soo much. But - I do have days that I don't cry and I am OK. 

Hello Ya'll

Well, here goes...

OK I admit, I drive my twin boys to school in the morning,  (the bus comes at 6:15 am and we only live 3 miles from school)! OK, they are seniors in high school. That doesn't really matter. Right?

Yesterday at 6:45 am I told the twins:  I'm starting the car to warm it up, be ready in 5 minutes. (OK, it was a cold morning, 42 degrees, I knew they would be wearing shorts because the temperature was going up to the mid 60's and I didn't want them to freeze on the way to school) 

I started the car and told them: "Let's go" ! Well, my procrastinator son, Alex told me that he needs 2 documents to prove his address to be on the baseball team. He tried out and made the team.  Power bill, bank statement, etc... Me: WHAT? SWEET JESUS! This is going to make you late to school! (If they are one minute late they have to sit in the library their first block unless their parent signs them in). Me: Do you see what I am wearing? I am in my pajamas and my hair is OUT OF CONTROL in the morning! I can't sign you in! But, then, Nick announces, "mom, you have to go in anyway to get my phone back".  ??? What??? Nick: "it was taken away yesterday when I was texting you a message and I told my teacher you were extremely ill and I should have been suspended for 3 days but she only took it away because she felt bad that you were so sick". If you don't back me up I will be suspended and that could affect my graduation. I did not go in and his teacher did call me and told me Nick was attemping to send me a text that he didn't get to hit send. Geez.

So back to Alex, I dug thru my "bag o bills" and handed him our power bill and a bank statement. On the way to school Alex opened the power bill first and said: "mom, it says we are 2 months behind and our power will be cut off on Feburary 22nd)! I can't turn this in! Me: OK son, then just turn in the bank statement. Alex: "mom, this says you had an overdraft on Feburary 2nd, and your account was charged $38.00"! I can't turn this in. Me: OK, tell the coach you will bring the documents tomorrow. To be cont...  It gets better, believe it or not.  To be cont.......