Beard?

OMG!!!! I think-"hope" my itty bitty doggie is sheading and her itty bitty dog hair attached itself to my chin!

I'm back!

Wow! I'm not sure what to say. I think I am finally ready to re-start my blog! I have sooo much to share and dont know where to begin. But I'm ready!  But right now I have to feed Minnie-my 5 pound Chiuwawa that rescued me when my husband passed away. She is spoiled - but beautiful!

Hello.

I'm still trying to jumpstart my blog! I have lots to share. I am still unsure.

 I will never understand why people I do not know leave me very unkind comments. For example: I had a car accident 3 1/2 years ago. A very bad car accident. Thank God my children were not seriously injured. I posted a picture on my blog of a crashed car. It was not my car. I thought I was innocently making a point.

 Just like the picture I posted of the band ZZ Top when we had a flat tire in the middle of no where on a long drive.  (he was scary looking but did a great job and charged me $5.00! I tipped him $20.00), anyway, I didn't know that I wasn't allowed to post pictures on my blog that I didn't personally take.

I did not get unkind messages about the ZZ Top picture on my blog - but I got a lot of unkind messages about posting a "fake" picture of a car that was totalled in a car accident. 

I would appreciate a little feedback.   Thanks!

I'm still here!

I hope to re-start my blog. I had to stop blogging for a while. Internet "bullies" somehow found my blog and decided to leave me very unkind comments that hit way below the belt. I will NEVER EVER understand people that leave discusting comments like: We all have issues, get over it! Your husband has been dead for 2 years - why do you still talk about him and your kids missing him? I deleted all of the messages of course. I will try to restart my blog. If the ugly bullies continue to attack me I will shut my blog down

Thank you!

Thank you to our entire military and veterans! You are ALL heros! God Bless You!

TGIF!

Happy Friday everyone! Even though it is storming here and bringing back memories from 2 weeks ago and the tornado- "without any warning", I a remaining calm. Not freaking out, not stressing, not feeling sick to my stomach, not lighting candles, not looking for flashlights, not carrying pillows and blankets to the first floor, not watching the weather channel, not looking for that solar radio my mom gave me years ago that won't have power anyway, not stressing at all. Just having a pleasant, relaxing Friday evening. I hope ya'll are also!

OK... Here goes...

Today is Tuesday! Tuesdays CAN be terriffic! Why you ask?

Because....

1.  It's not Monday.

2. My teacup Chihuaua, Minnie finally had a bowl movement today, 5 days after her surgery!

3. My son, Nick had 1/2 of a root canal today and survived!

4. My son, Alex finally stopped vomiting after 12 hours! :)

5. I think I lost weight - due to the side affects of cleaning up vomit! :)

6. I am growing, "onions", in my yard - even thou I didn't plant any. (they smell delicious)!

7. Last but not least...

8.  I WON THE LOTTERY!!!!  $4.00 on a $2.00 ticket!!!!!!!! I'm up 2 bucks!!!

9. Happy Tuesday everyone!!!!!!!!!

Positive Thinking!

I need to count my blessings-instead of dwelling on my "our" loss. I have 3 healthy children! Nicole, Alexander and Nicholas. Geez... I will continue this message later. I'm sorry.

Great advice...

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand!

Pity Party

I'm having a pity party that I need to get over. I need to count my blessings and stop feeling sorry for myself. But I still have difficult days. I miss my husband and I need him. Our children need him. There are so many things in our everyday life that I don't know how to do. I'm scared and sad. Tomorrow might be better.

SCARY, SCARY NIGHT!!!!!

Tornado touched down in my neighborhood at 2:30 am. No notice! Very scary! We don't and cannot have basements in the south! We need some kind of warning when we are sleeping - in the middle of the night!

Fabulous Friday!

I had a Fabulous Friday! I have lot's of research and phone calls to make - I'm excited! Things are looking up! There is hope for us after all! I am thinking positive!

Hello Tuesday!

I had a very, "Tired, Trying, "BUT TERRIFFIC TUESDAY!" I read some blogs that are so uplifting, I read some blogs that make me wish I was sailing around the world, I read some blogs that break my heart, I read some blogs that inspire me to be the best person I can be, I read some blogs that scare me -because some grown-ups can be very mean. I don't understand... 

Happy Birthday to me!

Happy Birthday to me.

I woke up this morning feeling sorry for myself. I honestly hoped nobody would remember it was my birthday. I didn't want to answer my phone, I didn't want to be bothered. I wanted to stay in bed and watch Lifetime movies. And eat cheese doodles and drink diet coke. I wasn't really depressed. I just didn't want to act all cheerful and happy. I just wanted to chill for a few hours.

Well, for starters, the Lifetime movie was: "The abduction of Elizabeth Smart", not the kind of movie I was hoping to watch. My other choices were, Jersey Shore, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME"! I have heard about that show but... enough said.  Gold Rush? OMG!!! Lizard Lick Towing? They DO NOT represent our entire state of North Carolina!!! Mob Wives? Geez!!! The Waltons? YES!!! 

My children barged into my room with Birthday cards and prescious gifts! I changed my mind! I was so happy they remembered my birthday and "bothered" me! I had the best birthday ever! I answered my phone and was so happy my parents and family called me to wish me a Happy Birthday. My children took me out to dinner and I had a fabulous time! 

I had a Wonderful Birthday! 

Bye Bye Bags

My eye bags are so much better! Preparation H rocks!

Wednesday

Wednesday. Wow. Weird. Work  Woke up with my eyes almost swollen shut. Allergies? Of course I applied heavy make-up to... Conseal-disguise my swollen eye lids and the massive bags under my eyes IM TALKING HUGE bags under my eyes. I painted my face with lots of makeup. I even wore a red shirt to match my eyelids.  I went to work - I did my best to avoid all contact with my co-workers. When I passed my co-workers in my office I bent my head back - I thought that made my swelling less noticeable. I should have worn shoes without heels today. I was walking down the hall in my office with my head bent back at an awkward angle to disguise my disfigured face and tripped over my own feet. I don't know if I broke my left foot in the same place for the 3rd time or if it is a bad sprain. A sweet young co-worker helped me up. I told her my story. I showed her my eyes. She made me feel a lot better about myself. She said: "if people don't know you - they would just think that - that's what your face normally  looks like " 

Terrific Tuesday

It's time to think positive! Today is Tuesday. Tuesdays are TERRIFIC!  It took me 1 1/2 hours to drive home from work today! I had a positive attitude! I opened the windows in my car, turned the radio up very loud and sang songs that I don't know the words to. It made me feel better. It did not make the people in the cars near me feel better. But... it felt good!
By the way, I replaced "traffic" with "terrific". 

I'm looking forward to tomorrow!  WONDERFUL, WILD, WEDNESDAY! I have a few wacky things to share. Watch out!

So tired.

I'm sooo tired. but I can't sleep. Tossed and turned all night last night. I was so tired driving the 35 miles to work today. I was sooo tired all day at work. I was sooo tired driving the 35 miles home from work. I am totally exhausted tonight - but I still can't sleep. 

But... I have my rescue dog, Minnie. She rescued me! I think I will sleep good tonight. I don't have to   worry about waking up early to go to work. One other issue:  My itty bitty Minnie snores. But her snoring is very cute.

TGIF!!!

TGIF Everyone!!!

T:  Thinking about

G: Gorging on

I:   Italian

F:  Food

Happy Friday!

Well - Here Goes

I took off work today to take care of important business. I had to find Car Titles, etc... things that I didn't care about and didn't want to think about - so I put several very important documents - somewhere.

I have always been extremely organized - I loved organizing cabinets, closets, drawers, EVERYTHING! I loved cleaning- dusting-vacuuming-mopping the floors. I miss my organized - clean house. I miss the old me.  But- I also think to myself - why bother with organizing, etc... I have to get a grip on my life and accept what is happening, and carry the boxes in that are in my car and start packing. I am still doing my best to be in denial. But, I know I need to wake up and be strong and be the parent my children deserve.  God Help Me

Thursday. But... not Friday

Well, I had a better day today. I had rough night last night. I still don't know how to be a single parent and wish I had Den here to tell me how to handle issues. He always knew how to handle everything.

I still have days that I am so sad and lonely and miss him soo much. But - I do have days that I don't cry and I am OK. 

Hello Ya'll

Well, here goes...

OK I admit, I drive my twin boys to school in the morning,  (the bus comes at 6:15 am and we only live 3 miles from school)! OK, they are seniors in high school. That doesn't really matter. Right?

Yesterday at 6:45 am I told the twins:  I'm starting the car to warm it up, be ready in 5 minutes. (OK, it was a cold morning, 42 degrees, I knew they would be wearing shorts because the temperature was going up to the mid 60's and I didn't want them to freeze on the way to school) 

I started the car and told them: "Let's go" ! Well, my procrastinator son, Alex told me that he needs 2 documents to prove his address to be on the baseball team. He tried out and made the team.  Power bill, bank statement, etc... Me: WHAT? SWEET JESUS! This is going to make you late to school! (If they are one minute late they have to sit in the library their first block unless their parent signs them in). Me: Do you see what I am wearing? I am in my pajamas and my hair is OUT OF CONTROL in the morning! I can't sign you in! But, then, Nick announces, "mom, you have to go in anyway to get my phone back".  ??? What??? Nick: "it was taken away yesterday when I was texting you a message and I told my teacher you were extremely ill and I should have been suspended for 3 days but she only took it away because she felt bad that you were so sick". If you don't back me up I will be suspended and that could affect my graduation. I did not go in and his teacher did call me and told me Nick was attemping to send me a text that he didn't get to hit send. Geez.

So back to Alex, I dug thru my "bag o bills" and handed him our power bill and a bank statement. On the way to school Alex opened the power bill first and said: "mom, it says we are 2 months behind and our power will be cut off on Feburary 22nd)! I can't turn this in! Me: OK son, then just turn in the bank statement. Alex: "mom, this says you had an overdraft on Feburary 2nd, and your account was charged $38.00"! I can't turn this in. Me: OK, tell the coach you will bring the documents tomorrow. To be cont...  It gets better, believe it or not.  To be cont.......

Hello 2012

I'm almost ready to re-start blogging!  Stay tuned!