This is Den when he went to the doctor for a lump on his neck

His 4 children can't accept (just like me why the VA doctors wouldn't help him) The VA doctor specialists were so proud that they are teaching our Government about health care. They bragged that they are Obama care

Hey - It's me

I am back. I am trying to update on a regular basis because it is therapy for me. Also, I had so many followers from around the world at one time but - I lost my husband. 12 days after he was diagnosed with cancer. He had 3 appointments every week at the VA and they watched him die. 4 specialist doctors that he was seeing... uuum... There is no way 4 specialists couldn't diagnose my husbands non-hodgkins lymphoma. They knew. The VA doctors watched his health deteriorate in 3 months.

When I couldn't lift my husband to try to put him my car - I told him "you know what I have to do. Right" He shook his head yes. I called 911 and when Den was in a bed in the ER the first doctor that walked in took one look at Den and said: "Mr. Davis, you are dying. I think you have cancer and I think it's everywhere in your body." I told the ER doctor we were in the VA Emergency room 2 days ago after Dens appt with the liver doctor. They both said Den was doing good. I handed them a letter (that I will post after I scan it) begging the doctors to help my husband because he was dying! I gave a similar letter to every doctor Den had an appt with.

12 hours after Den was admitted into Carolinas Medical Center the doctor said: I was right. I knew by looking at him that he was dying of cancer. He dided from non-hodkins lymphoma. The most rapidly growing cancer ... but... the most treatable. He initally went to the VA doctor for a lump on his neck. That was the place where Non Hodkins Lymphoma starts. They ignored his neck tumor and watched him get weaker and weaker and one of the doctspecialists told me: We practice what is now called: "Obama Care". The Government Health Care Reform will be the same as the VA. And that doctor was so proud.

Den had a biopsy scheldued the day after he died. 3 months after he went to the doctor for a lump on his neck.

My Husband

Yup. The VA threw him away. He should be alive. He trusted the VA over our regular health insurance. He should be here with his wife and children. We were I guess you could say- "lucky that we were told - get our children up here - we need to say goodbye". I still can't hardly remember telling my husband of 25 years-goodbye-forever. He was totally coherant. He told me earlier that day that Jesus was in his room. The day before he told me angels were in his room. I told his nurses he was hallucinating. He couldn't have heard me but told me when I got back that he wasn't. Hours before things went downhill with Den, he looked at me and said: DON'T GO BALLISTIC MARLENE!!! DON'T GO BALLISTIC !!! I looked at him and said: I'm not sweetie. Everything is OK. I'm fine and you are fine. He tried to tell me for a couple days. I understand now. I didn't then. I wish I did know what he was trying to tell me. I miss him sooooo much. My heart and our 3 childrens hearts are so broken. And we are losing our house and will be homeless soon.

Last year

The last 12 months have been the worst nightmare for my children and myself. My husband passed away from cancer 12 days after being diagnosed. His body was totally ravished with cancer. It was in every organ, totally covering his spine, his back and hips were broke because his body was full of cancer. He was a Military veteran and when he noticed a lump on his neck he went to the VA clinic. They witnessed Den transform from a healthy man into a man in the last stages of cancer and threw him away. He Died on December 22, 2009. He was buried on his birthday, December 28, 2009. He finally agreed to let me call 911. I couldn't get him to stand up to drive him 1 hour to the VA. In three months time he was this person. He died of non-Hodkins Lymphoma. The most rapid growing cancer-but the most treatable. If the VA doctors (4 specialists) gave a shit about him he would be alive. They told me: Welcome to Obamacare. I will post the next picture- 3 months later...

Hey Bloggers

I am doing a good job, (I think being mom and dad since my husband passed away). I kinda fixed one of our toilets and kinda (but not really), turned our lawn mower on. (Ok a kid turned it on and cut the grass for me. He told me I shouldn't wear flip flops if I ever cut the grass). I felt proud of my self because I almost cut the grass! I kinda learnt how to check the oil in my car. I stopped on my way home from work because my car sounded funny. I found the dip stick and looked at it and thought my oil was empty. I walked the parking lot until I found a man in his car and asked him if my oil was empty. He said no. He walked me back to my car and sat in the drivers seat and drove the parking lot for a couple minutes to try to figure out what could be wrong. He couldn't figure out the problem. Then he did! He did something and asked me: is this how your car sounded? I SAID YES!!! He said: you were driving in your second gear and not in drive. WOW. I was so grateful! There are good people out there!