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Missing Den. I can't believe hes gone. I need him. I don't understand. I just don't know why he's not here. I am so mad at myself-why didn't I do something sooner? I can't believe hes gone.

His friends and my friends were very supportive for 2 weeks. Including my entire family-except for Jenn, my bonus daughter. No phone calls, no e-mails, no text messages. Nothing. I really can't blame them. They never lost their spouse. But a text message one a month would be nice. Den's oldest daughter from a previous marriage is my rock.

This is my life now.