Well...

What should I do? Writing in my blog helps me share my feelings. But... I think it's time to close it down. I appreciate everyone who reads my blog but - nobody leaves comments. I think I will start a journal and eventually write a book about our unbelievable experience - and how the VA Medical "Specialists", change medical records, smile and tell a veteran that he is in good shape- 14 days before he died even tho the specialist smiled and ignored my letter telling him my husband is dying and should have known that his stomach was huge because his liver was so full of tumors that he wasnt able to eat for weeks. He couldnt walk-because his spine and hips were broke because the tumors were everywhere. Dens pain was so unbelievabley beyond imagination, he couldn't walk to the bathroom. I finally called 911 and when the ER doctor took one look at Den he told him: your dying, I am sure you have cancer and it has spread thru your intire body. I didnt know until I got him to a real hospital. And 4 VA specialists were... what? They knew. They threw my husband away. The hospital records were altered, so many lies, so, so, so many things deleated. 4 specialists, and a primary doctor saw my husband go from a healthy man - ignored the lump on his neck- (called it a sebaceous cyst), and in a 3 month period, Den went from good health - then died from Non-hodgkins Lymphoma. The lump in his neck was suppose to be biopsied the day after he died. His cancer is the most rapidly spreading cancer-but the most treatable. The real doctors at Carolina Medical Center told us: if he went to the doctor 3 months ago he would have been cured. We told that dr that he did go to the dr for the lump on his neck 3 months ago and 4 specialists told us it was a cyst and they watched him die-they let him die and I tried to get an attorney to represent me in a wrongful death suit- the attorney prepared me. Dens records were altered, many items deleated. PAINFUL LIES!!! One doctor wrote that Den was "obese", that was 15 days before he died and had lost 60 pounds and the damn Liver Specialist that wrote that knew that Dens stomach was huge and needed a low calorie diet. Den couldn't walk or get out of his wheelchair at this point. The dr didn't tell us Den needed a diet. He told us Den was fine. The liver doctor had to know that Dens stomach was so swollen because it was his liver that should be the size of your fist and his was the size of a 8 month pregnant lady-it was his liver tumors. I'm done. I will stop blogging for now and maybe forever